Unprepared

I'm looking forward to the last two weeks of Lent this year.  God is stretching and pulling me in many ways to grow these next few weeks.  For starters, this weekend I'll be working on a whole different floor of the nursing home I work at, on a completely different shift from what I work, so I really just don't know what to expect.  And this year will be my first year away from home for a major holiday (Easter), so God is really introducing me to some new, scary, exciting situations. Also in the next few weeks, I hope and pray to be finding somewhere to live this summer here in KC.  Blessed Teresa of Calcutta's musing rings true for me these days: "I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much."

Basically, I feel super unprepared these days.  God is sending me into whole new battles and circumstances, and it doesn't seem to me that I have all my necessary equipment. I don't even have a strategy.  I just keep going without a plan or any clue what I'm getting myself into.  I guess the times that God tests us are the times where we're thrown in the pool so that we can come back to the surface and tread water.  I guess that means I need to hold my breath and plunge in.