I must perform all my actions through Mary, with Mary, and for Mary. I am and will always be her slave of love. Mary is my Mother, I belong to her. Mary is my Queen, I obey her. Mary is my Mistress, I serve her. Mary is my Teacher, I listen to her. Mary is my Model, I imitate her. Mary is my Star, I follow her. Mary is my Support, I rely on her. Mary is my Strength, I am strong with her. Mary is my Refuge, I seek shelter in her.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Martha preparing for the Lord
Friday, November 25, 2011
A bit about break so far
It was actually pretty hard to leave home this time. Riding home with my parents from Thanksgiving, looking out the window at the stars (the only thing better than coming home to a Kansas summer sky is coming home to a Kansas winter sky...it's breath-taking), I just didn't want that car ride to end. If there's one thing I realize and appreciate more from leaving home for college, it's that moments like that don't get to happen very often, so I try to hold onto them tightly when they do.
I did have a very fun break while it lasted, though. On Wednesday we bridesmaids for my friend Sarah's wedding picked and bought our dresses. Then I went with them to eat at Freddy's, where we met up with her dad and Bryant (the fiancée) and I joined Bryant and Sarah on a trip around town. First they took me to see Sarah's wedding band and the ring that Bryant is considering, then I went with them to their dance class, where they were perfecting the waltz (so fun to watch! Thankfully when I was pulled in to join at one point, I knew the basic step already, so I didn't completely flop.). After that we went to a friend's bonfire and hung out. It was so weird/interesting being the only one under 21.
For Thanksgiving Day we went to Mass and watched an hour of the parade before heading to my dad's side of the family for Thanksgiving. I got to see my little cousins, and we had a fantastic meal and a super fun time playing cards. Even though I lost horribly at garbage. Not that I'm blaming my dad since he sat behind me in order and passed me horrible cards or anything ;-).
So, I traveled back up to the Rock and went back to work today. Over the next couple days I'll be working quite a bit and fitting in cleaning, homework, and seeing the Sisters in the between time. So life goes. I hope your entrance into Advent is equally as blessed, dear readers!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Blue Screen of Death
How often are we spiritually sick, but don't know the underlying issue? We can see the symptoms, but don't know the source. I can be feeling moody, irritable, and grumpy, but if I don't get down to what's really bothering me, then all I can do is try to remedy the superficial layers. I think what happens is that, initially, we know what has bothered us...some event that is causing so much turmoil that we either bury it or let ourselves believe that it has been fixed. When you start to feel emotions that you don't immediately connect with the real issue at hand, then it's harder still to get to the root of how to go about what needs to happen for you to feel spiritually well again.
It's important for us not to bury issues and pretend like they're alright when they're not. Something that amazes me about the Blessed Mother is that she "pondered these things in her heart." That is the hardest part of Mary for me to imitate, I think. I usually go about it one of two ways...I bury it, or I can't stand keeping it to myself so I dump it on someone else. It's difficult for me to take it to God instead. Mary truly pondered over things...she didn't bury the trouble, she didn't "emotionally dump" on others, but she truly took the issue from herself and gave it over to her Lord.
It's also important for us to seek out spiritual direction. Preferably a priest. Someone you confess to regularly, so that when you do try to hide the deeper issue, they can say, uh uh, we're going to get to the root of the problem. It's so imperative to have a good spiritual director guided by the Holy Spirit who is not afraid to pinpoint exactly what needs to be done. If a priest is unavailable or if God is still preparing one for you (such as is my case, at the moment), then regular confession is still key, and finding a peer or role model, someone who is spiritually mature and knows you well enough to keep you on track and point out what needs to be done, can also work. I just think it's highly important that we all have someone holding us accountable. That way, when that "Blue Screen of Death" comes along, you can get right to the source and fix whatever is the problem.
Lastly, honesty with yourself is key. Call yourself out! It takes prayer, self-discipline, and a focus on spiritual meditation to accomplish this, and it is no easy task. I am still far from perfect on this. Mental prayer and regularly having recourse to the Sacraments to obtain grace, which will make our spiritual sight clearer, should help us all in this aspect. (Too bad my computer couldn't self-reflect and pinpoint a problem instead of going right to the "Blue Screen of Death").
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Daily Gospel VIII: Luke 20:27-40
General Audience of 01/12/1982
"As a sacrament born from the mystery of Redemption and, in a certain sense, reborn from the nuptial love between Christ and the Church (cf. Eph 5,22-23), marriage is an efficacious expression of God's saving power, bringing to realization his eternal design even after sin and in spite of the concupiscence that is hidden in the hearts of every human being, both man and woman... As a sacrament of the Church, marriage is by nature indissoluble. As a sacrament of the Church it is also a word spoken by the Spirit, who exhorts man and woman to shape their whole life together by drawing strength from the mystery of the redemption of the body... The redemption of the body means... that hope which, in the context of marriage, can be defined as hope in daily life, hope in what is temporal...
The dignity of married couples... is expressed in their profound awareness of the sanctity of life, to which both contribute by participating as co-founders of a family in the forces belonging to the mystery of creation. In the light of this hope, which is linked to the mystery of the redemption of the body, this new human life, the child conceived and born of the conjugal union of its father and mother, opens itself to the 'firstfruits of the Spirit' 'to enter into the freedom of the glory of the children of God'. And if 'all creation is groaning in labor pains even until now', a special hope accompanies the woman in the pains of childbirth, namely the hope of 'the revelation of the children of God' (cf. Rm 8,19-23), a hope of which every newborn child carries a spark when it comes into the world... This is what Christ's words refer to when he called attention to the resurrection of the body... They are children of God, being children of the resurrection."
Beautiful...
I actually really liked this line..."He is not God of the dead, but of the living, for to him all are alive." I mean, really, just so cool. Not only are those who "die" very much alive in the eyes of the Church, but extremely alive, as they are participating in the glorious reality of Heaven. Woah...that means they're super duper alive.
Heaven is so darn cool!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
One more week till Thanksgiving!!
Moving right along...
Work has been going alright. I don't feel like I've had a ton of customer experience yet in the store, so I'm still rusty as to how to help customers, since most of them that come in are just walking around the Plaza looking for something to do. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind the menial tasks I've been doing to fill my time, but I was hired as a seasonal worker to interact with customers as they come in so that the regular workers can help with the bigger issues if they're there for registry, design studio, buying furniture, etc. I'm sure it will get more interesting and fast-paced as the holiday season approaches.
Speaking of the holidays, I'm so excited for Thanksgiving. If my work schedule works out that I can go home, then I'll go home for Thanksgiving day and be back for Black Friday. If it doesn't work out that way, then I'll just spend Thanksgiving up here. Either way I hope to go volunteer a bit at the Little Sisters, because I haven't seen them since AUGUST! Crazy!!
Alright, well, time to go get ready for the day. Have a good one, readers!
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Kickin' off the weekend!
Last night we kicked off the weekend here by going to Beyond Words, which Rockhurst Res Life put on, which drew attention to the cycle of oppression and discrimination in our society. Then we went to the tailgate that the Student Athletes hosted (I won a t-shirt...that's two sizes too big. Oh well, a new addition to the pajama collection lol). After that we returned to our house for a spur of the moment dance party. We even dressed up and took pictures ;-)

Then I went on over to the FOCUS missionaries' house to hear a talk by Dr. Kasia Szymanek. She's a DO in residency and is knowledgeable in the Creighton method of NFP. She talked to a group of us women about natural hormone balance and about NAPRO as opposed to In-Vitro. It's so surprising how much you DON'T know about your own natural body processes until somebody explains it to you in such a context. I definitely learned more about charting and about what is involved in NAPRO.
This morning a group of us went to pray at Planned Parenthood, and now I'm waging the homework battle ;-). Thanks for dropping in everybody!
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
A Focus on the Positives of the Day
1. Woke up, got an early start on studying for John: Gospel and Epistles, and took the test. Glad to have that out of the way this week :-)
2. Had time to take a little break before Religion, Ethnicity, and Race today.
3. Received my last A&P test back with a 96%!! Now just to figure out why class is so much easier than lab...positivity, positivity!!
4. Had one super awesome afternoon. Anna and Alma came over for hot chocolate. Delicious. And Alma just makes me smile so much. I hope this friendship continues to grow. Her story is fantastic.
5. I have time to write this! And soon I will be reheating some leftovers and buckling down for studying for lab.
6. Bible study is tonight. I'm really looking forward to it for whatever reason.
7. I've had the chance to talk more with Matt the past few days then we've been able to in a while.
8. With my first paycheck I got a trim and got a super good deal at Payless with BOGO. I now have work shoes and purse that's easier for them to check before I leave the store.
9. I made my first sale ever last night. And I left work with a $5 gift certificate to Starbucks because of some competition that our particular Potter Barn Kids store had won. So I got a cinnamon dolce latte and a mini peanut butter cupcake. Perfect on a dreary night like last night.
10. I'm just blessed overall.
How have YOU been blessed lately??
Friday, November 4, 2011
Fall Back
This was such a funny week. As in, it wasn't crazy busy, but it was busy enough to make me tired enough to be falling asleep by 8pm last night. I suppose a lot of it was due to the fact that Monday started off busy. Whenever the week starts off busy, then the rest of it seems to follow suit. Thursday marked the end of my busy week, as that was the culmination of the week. Yesterday contained World Cultures Day, for which all language students prepare a small booth on a country that has the language which they are learning (mine was Guadeloupe [not Guadalupe]). It wasn't a huge project, but it was time consuming.
Emily, Courtney, and I came to an intimidating conclusion this week: it's already crunch time for the semester. Wait...woah...how in the WORLD did that happen?! But it's so true. Papers coming up...finals starting middle of November...it's here! Ca-razy.
Something else that's crazy...no more piano lessons after this semester. Next week is literally my last piano lesson ever. For our recital on the 15th we are instead doing a studio with just the piano students, as it seems the Piano I students have not been practicing or sometimes even showing up for their lessons (silly silly silly). Ergo, they would not have been ready for a recital. It's a little sad that I will not have my last recital actually be a recital, but it will also be less stressful to prepare for, thereby leaving me time to invest into other classes.
Alright, time to be productive for a while :-) Thanks for checking in, and peace to you!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Quote of the Day XIX
--Pope Benedict XVI