Still Waiting

I was hoping by this point in the summer that I could make a wonderful blog post about specific future plans and what I'm doing with my life.

Alas.

Things are still very vague on my end.  I'm engaged...but I don't know when I'm getting married.  I have a part-time, on-commission job...but I'm still looking for full-time employment.  I've been accepted to school...but I still don't know if I can afford it.

It's interesting (and obnoxious) to tell people these details.  One thing I've learned since graduation is that uncertain plans translate to failure in people's ears.  Hoping to go to school half-way across the country even though you're engaged makes people raise their eyebrows and stare at you like you're mad.  Get that girl a reality check. 

I guess that's where my hopefulness about my part-time job comes in.  It's working with Reditus Marketing...they work with local businesses to sponsor the Lighthouse CD displays in three local parishes, and in turn put their business ads on the displays (If any of you know some local businesses that would love to support this great ministry, let me know? Most of the responses I've received is that they've planned out their advertising budgets for the year.  I guess I'm still learning the ropes here.).  It really is a great opportunity...flexible working from home whenever I want, it'll be nice to either earn money for school or supplement my future full-time income, and since it's nation-wide I can take it wherever I go...either to school or wherever I find a job.  The thing is, since I'm still just starting, I'm just at the making-calls phase...and hearing lots of "no".  I know it's all in the numbers...the more calls I make, the closer I'll get to a "yes" to an appointment, and then to a "yes" to sponsor.  But when it's the only thing I'm relying on right now, every "no" is more and more frustrating. 

So life right now is about finding the beauty in the limbo.  Finding blessing in waiting.  Attempting not to feel like I'm a burden...I'm trying my best, but when the world tells you you have to be doing something, it's a little difficult to be content in any kind of wait-and-see phase.  This is a tad cliche, but I know something will work out.