If you wish

Yes, this is a new blog post at 12:30 in the morning.  Yes, I am aware I am insane.  I had a semi-insane night to match.  Which consisted of me driving to an Adoration chapel, forgetting the code, and driving back.  Considering I really needed Jesus in this night, it was definitely a bummer.  Good thing I have a wonderful boyfriend who was up willing to talk a little anyways.  Yes, it was a rough night.

See, I have this bad habit of wanting things to go my way, and when change gets in the way of it then I battle it out with the change, usually coming out the loser with a bruised ego and a dose of humility for medicine.  Sometimes the after effects feel worse than the battle itself. It's in the post-battle with change that more of my character is uncovered to me.  I'm naive, impatient, greedy, vain, and pretty haughty in general.  Ew. Gross combination. 

So, tonight, I attempted to go see my Physician to talk about a treatment strategy.  Didn't exactly work out, but there's always tomorrow.  The point is that I'm trying...right?

"If you wish, you can make me clean."