Little Moments

ahhhh...done with the first full week of school...and already a 3-day weekend! Labor Day just popped out of thin air. And I'm done with classes for the day. I'm staying here this weekend and planning on going to town on cleaning, homework, and purposeful-relaxation (aka reading or baking or both). I missed morning Mass today (someday I WILL remember that the 11am Mass is at SFX, not on campus...), so I'm going to venture to Old St. Patrick Oratory in northern KC for a Latin Mass at 6pm...first time in a while I've been to one, so my project for the afternoon is to print out some responses and remind myself of them...

I'm attempting at the moment to think of one word to describe this first full week...and all that comes to mind is "unplanned". Literally, every day I had an idea of how I wanted it to go, and every day something completely threw it off. Whether it was a headache, allergies, my forgetfulness, or just in general being busy and/or having homework, nothing went as planned. Nothing. I was so agitated going to bed last night because I was SO peeved that nothing went my way. Oh, to be reminded that I am nothing by myself. But I also look back and realize that at least once, each day, there was a consolation. Whether it was somebody I hadn't seen yet who just said hi, walked a little bit with me, and/or had a meaningful conversation, I knew that God was just saying, "Look, I'm here, always will be, in your darkest hour, I am the Light...you may not always "feel" me, but I am here. You just have to be aware."

To be aware...that's something that has started blooming in my life since coming to college. In high school I was so centered in on little pieces of life that I missed out on a lot of big picture things. I honestly don't have a good memory of a ton of high school. The parts that I remember the most are actually from retreats, specifically Steubenville retreats...probably because those are what mattered the most. College and CLC "God-moments" made me open my eyes to God's interactions in life..."God-incidents" as I've heard them called. And, since I've been looking for them more, I find more of them. I have so many more wonderful memories since I've come to college...even in the bad weeks. Because even in those weeks the sun still shines, the rain still freshens, the clouds will part to a beautiful sunrise, and a friend will give you a super-hug. Blessed be God for the little moments with which He woos us.